This is my test.
This is my time to prove that I understood that I deserve to experience great things in life. That I deserve to love, to laugh, and to be light. To receive light. Darkness is here only to help me realise that. to help me realise my light.
I saw this video today and giggled at the fact that this bird’s quest is the perfect metaphor for my journey of self-discovery.
Just like this bird, I know where I am going and what I’m looking for. But just like the part of myself which I’m calling the sceptic, nothing seems to be happening: I throw my heart out and my piece of bread just gets smaller and smaller.
At least that’s what I think when I’m having a bad day. The truth is, I’m not losing anything. Worrying that I’m a misfit with no solution are all illusions of the sceptic that need to go. I am not throwing my tiny piece of bread into nothingness.
It’s just that I’m quickly becoming aware of things that were never right in my life, aspects of me which I ignored because I didn’t have the courage to face them. And it hurts to see them. But now I do. Now that I shine a light, I can see my dark corners. And having guilt or shame about these dark corners is not allowed because it’s all part of the process. And in a way, it’s beautiful.
So listen up, sceptic: I will be patient and I will keep you calm. That’s it. Try to cooperate. I’m just trying to make you feel it, even if only for a split-second. We are what we are looking for, man.
Can you feel it? The big fish is us.
“Thought has limitations and therefore has its place.”
If you’re feeling that your life isn’t going to where you want fast enough, just remember that sloths take 30 days to digest a single leaf – and they still get to where they want… 🙂
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Stay calm. And if you don’t know what to do, do nothing. – Maya Angelou in The Power of the Heart
When ignorance is exhausted, we see our Original Nature. In the sea of suffering, beings don’t know they have this Buddha Nature. The Buddha’s teachings are all aimed at showing us this Nature (…). You practice with discipline, meditation and wisdom and break apart the false self. The false self covers our Buddha Nature so beings can’t see it. On a cloudy day you cant see the sun but that’s not to say there is no sun right? There’s nothing wrong with the sun it’s just that we can’t see it. Our Buddha Nature is just like this.” – Buddhist Master, hermit in the Zhongnan Mountains, China
“If you have negative awareness, then this world is hell. If you have kind awareness, then this world is heaven.” – Buddhist Master, hermit in the Zhongnan Mountains, China