In death I find comfort
in life I search for it
sometimes I wonder
which path is really lit
under the moonlight I ponder
if I’ll ever be free
or if I’ll always regret
not having found Me.
I saw this video today and giggled at the fact that this bird’s quest is the perfect metaphor for my journey of self-discovery.
Just like this bird, I know where I am going and what I’m looking for. But just like the part of myself which I’m calling the sceptic, nothing seems to be happening: I throw my heart out and my piece of bread just gets smaller and smaller.
At least that’s what I think when I’m having a bad day. The truth is, I’m not losing anything. Worrying that I’m a misfit with no solution are all illusions of the sceptic that need to go. I am not throwing my tiny piece of bread into nothingness.
It’s just that I’m quickly becoming aware of things that were never right in my life, aspects of me which I ignored because I didn’t have the courage to face them. And it hurts to see them. But now I do. Now that I shine a light, I can see my dark corners. And having guilt or shame about these dark corners is not allowed because it’s all part of the process. And in a way, it’s beautiful.
So listen up, sceptic: I will be patient and I will keep you calm. That’s it. Try to cooperate. I’m just trying to make you feel it, even if only for a split-second. We are what we are looking for, man.
Can you feel it? The big fish is us.
If you’re feeling that your life isn’t going to where you want fast enough, just remember that sloths take 30 days to digest a single leaf – and they still get to where they want… 🙂
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Freedom is to do what you want without fucking up your life.
If you don’t do what you want, all that remains is the possibility of you fucking up your life.
Think about the things you do everyday: How many of those are done in auto-pilot? Closing the door, turning the water tap, seeing passers-by on the street, taking a bite off your breakfast; replying ‘lol’.
The number of things that you did on auto-pilot today are the same number of things that you did not live today. We only live what we consciously experience. That’s why you get sad with the thought of losing something or someone close – because you regret not having lived it to the fullest. If you did, there would be no regret.
Living every moment might seem hard, but it becomes easier everyday you practice it. One day, you’ll realise every single second of your life. And at that moment, you’ll understand that you are here and everywhere: you are timeless.
If you truly live in the moment you’ll never be unpleasantly surprised. Change is inherent to life; and being present means to be fully aware of it.