Apathy and emotional overreaction are different sides of the same coin. Just like laughter and tears are both expressions of a release happening in the body, apathy and emotional overreaction are both expressions of the same egotistic tendency of the mind to be in control.
Run away from the past, and you’ll become disconnected. Run towards the future, and you’ll become too emotional. The only way to free ourselves is to let go, observe, and stop running away and towards experiences which never really happened, and never really will. The only true experience that we will ever have is happening right now. Now it’s gone. Wait, now it’s here again. Can you feel it?
When you doubt yourself. When you question if you’re good enough. When you wonder if the things you were born to do were just frivolous dreams. When you ask yourself if you are as special as you used to think… don’t answer. There is still no right reply. But one day, sooner than later, you will have the answer for all those questions – the right one. And you’ll know that because you held your answer until the day you succeeded.
Don’t trust anyone to know what’s best for you. No doctors, parents or politics can end your pain. Not because they don’t want to, but simply because they don’t know you – the real person hiding beneath all they know...
If you want to make things right, start listening to your true self – to what you like, what you don’t like, to what feels right. It’s quite unreal that you would live inside somebody and some mind that you don’t know at all.
Our bodies are so cool. Sometimes they can seem primitive, like when we feel change and pain. They are the most basic stage of life – our door to freedom. Being primal is their job – to connect us to the simplicity of everyday life. Bodies are beautiful illusions that cover up the infinity of our bright, cosmic light. And that illusion can be tailored the way we want it. Your body is not you, but a projection of yourself, capable of interacting, indulging and stunning others with every breath that you take.
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I came to realise recently that happiness is a continuous process.
By inviting moments that keep us going and make us happy, we’re actually setting ourselves for failure. We’re breaking the cycle of happiness. Because everything that has a start, must have an end. And everything that has an end, takes us back to where we were before (unless we’re 100% conscious moving through this process – which most of us are not – especially when eating ice cream).
The things that give us pleasure have a wave of ups and downs, beginnings and ends, that disturb the continuos process of the happiness that lies beneath. That is the case of a text message from our crush, amazing sex, or shopping, to name a few. And we understand this because we’ve all seen ourselves needing something we didn’t need 5 minutes ago. And that can be a yoga matt, an apple or a pay raise.
And by no means I am saying you should stop having pleasure. Because pleasure makes us feel alive. And feeling alive is what we want. But feeling alive through pleasure and feeling alive through happiness is not the same thing. Because true happiness can make you feel alive all the time. Pleasure cannot. True happiness is something deeper than pleasure that lies beneath all pleasures. Like a cupcake mould that can be filled in with the most various ingredients. No matter what ingredients you have or don’t have, the mould will always be there.
So make your cupcakes and eat it them too. But don’t trick yourself into thinking that the cupcakes are what makes you happy. What makes you happy is the tool you have to make them.
Even when you run out of sprinkles.