Enlightenment explained by a bird

I saw this video today and giggled at the fact that this bird’s quest is the perfect metaphor for my journey of self-discovery.

Just like this bird, I know where I am going and what I’m looking for. But just like the part of myself which I’m calling the sceptic, nothing seems to be happening: I throw my heart out and my piece of bread just gets smaller and smaller.

At least that’s what I think when I’m having a bad day. The truth is, I’m not losing anything. Worrying that I’m a misfit with no solution are all illusions of the sceptic that need to go. I am not throwing my tiny piece of bread into nothingness.

It’s just that I’m quickly becoming aware of things that were never right in my life, aspects of me which I ignored because I didn’t have the courage to face them. And it hurts to see them. But now I do. Now that I shine a light, I can see my dark corners. And having guilt or shame about these dark corners is not allowed because it’s all part of the process. And in a way, it’s beautiful.

So listen up, sceptic: I will be patient and I will keep you calm. That’s it. Try to cooperate. I’m just trying to make you feel it, even if only for a split-second. We are what we are looking for, man.

Can you feel it? The big fish is us.

If you feel it’s there, it probably is

A friend of mine, Emma, recently told me that she felt that doing the Kundalini teacher training course (yes, we’re almost teachers!), is like finally drinking from an infinite source of water that was scarce all her life – as if she was wondering thirsty along the desert until now. Her words inspired me so much that I ended up writing this… because yes, we were chasing a mirage by joining this course, we had no idea what to expect, we were scared, but we did it anyway! And now I too feel like I’ve found the tip of my Oasis.. something that I thought was only a mirage all my life… and there’s so much to discover! Even if for the rest of the world my Oasis might seem just a crazy mirage, I have tasted it. I am in it. My inner journey has begun 🙂

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I love food and the energy I get from it – especially in the winter when the sun is down and my mind is frosted. Friends are far and laughter is too. Like a a true Omnivore, I can generate energy from anything I eat and feel good with it – from milk to apples, glutenous bread to lentils. I love it all and I feel the benefit of it all. Even that of meat.

But how beautiful is this cow? seriously. It’s hard to take a look at this gorgeous being and then eat it in a taco.

Annoyingly, You can’t love the cow and eat it too.

Hunf. I quit smoking the other day and I know the next step will be to go vegetarian. Not crazy vegetarian, just quietly vegetarian – learn tonnes of recipes, be comfortable in it. Step in and out of it as I wish. Cleanse my body and love the beings around me without ‘buts’. Honour this cow, who deserves a peaceful life as much as I do…

If only I didn’t have to choose.

Just like this Cachena cow. This lucky and unlucky cow lives in the moment and has no choice. Takes on destiny and has no choice. Is eaten and has no choice. The choice is all on us.

We can’t control life, but we can foresee it, and we have the responsibility to create the spectacular life that we are capable of imagining. Lucky and unlucky us.

To finish off, I’d like to share with you who inspired me to write this post: this cow and the woman singing in this music. No joke. Here’s my ‘Love The Cows’ meditation kit:

Step 1: Stare at this beautiful cow
Step 2: Listen to this healing music
Step 3: Imagine her heartbeat synched with yours, radiating light around her

You’ll understand what I mean…