“It takes more courage to examine the dark corners of your own soul than it does for a soldier to fight on a battlefield.” – W. B. Yeats
I feel the spirits of those who passed
as if I’d been there too
when in darkness I find my peace
where there’s nothing I’ve got to do
in their words I find my truth
in their dreams, hopes and fears
but which I feel are so near
only they know where I’m now
in this deep sorrow of mine
that if I said I didn’t love
I’d be lying
this is how true love unfolds
The power of unfulfilled desires is the root of all of man’s slavery.
– Sri Yukteswar in Autobiography of a Yogi, pg 415
The mind does nothing (to you) without your permission.
(Even with practice), the mind does not stop – it is you who stop giving attention to the mind. You will lose the tendency to evaluate yourself (and realise that) wave or no wave ocean is ocean. Without your interest, all these negativities fade out. They’re just living on sponsorship from you. If you have no interest in something it quietly goes out of existence.
If you keep on doing what you’re doing, you’re going to keep getting what you’re getting.
Apathy and emotional overreaction are different sides of the same coin. Just like laughter and tears are both expressions of a release happening in the body, apathy and emotional overreaction are both expressions of the same egotistic tendency of the mind to be in control.
Run away from the past, and you’ll become disconnected. Run towards the future, and you’ll become too emotional. The only way to free ourselves is to let go, observe, and stop running away and towards experiences which never really happened, and never really will. The only true experience that we will ever have is happening right now. Now it’s gone. Wait, now it’s here again. Can you feel it?
“When you stand out of the mind, all the problems disappear because the mind disappears.”
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So you make the best pancakes on earth, you’re humble and you always give loose change to the homeless. You’re good at your job and you always smile at strangers. You dress well and recycle and also have the most beautiful nose that Instagram has ever seen. You’re not a slacker. You had a tough life but you overcame it with grace. Today, you are stable and loved and you’ve managed to save up money for something big. Finally, you are all of that.
But all of that doesn’t even get close to everything that you are.
Inside, you are a being so big that no words can describe. No goals can achieve. No failure can break. Inside, you are something so powerful that no one could ever like or dislike. Not even you.
We build better versions of ourselves on the outside to create more and better bridges to communicate with each other. It’s all about acknowledging that we are all here, together. Now we can acknowledge moments together with an instant message, with a snap, with an emoji, with a like.But there is a form of communication that is bigger than any bridge: presence.
If you pay attention, you’ll feel it too. And then you’ll start seeing it everywhere. You’ll see it in me. You’ll see in cars, in coffee and in tea. You’ll see it in others. Suddenly, they’ll be there. On the tube, on the street, in the elevator. They’ll be there. And they’ll be celebrating that with you. Because they know they are there, you know you are here too. And no comment, like or emoji could ever surpass that. Presence is love that comes from the only place where information can not be misinterpreted. It comes from the heart. From one to the other. From all that we are, independently from what we choose to do on the outside.