I’m looking for real love
but again
I was told I won’t find it here
it demotivates me
to live a life without a peer
but what for
if he’d only serve to mask
my deep, pounding fear?

bittersweet matrix

I shiver
with how my brain manipulates my reality
I’m a prisoner of shape and colour
like a rat locked in the pantry
hypnotised by how good it tastes
to believe in a world of fakes
I suffer
God please help me let go
and coax me
to trust in the divine flow