My body is the home of violent emotions
Some of which I don’t understand
I ignore them and suppress them
But I’m not able to withstand.
Searching for the brightest light
Softly beaming in the darkest corner
I spot it and laugh out loud
But when I open my eyes, I feel the void.
Scary is to not know
Fear is to doubt
Will the void get out of control?
Is the promise land a hoax?
I hit the breaks and I come home
The void is just a game I play
I know that. I feel that. It’s okay.
No hard feelings
Lies; of course there are
Darkness is full of them
Hidden in the birds, in the trees and in the sea.
I meditate and I sink
And slowly, I let myself be pulled back
I’m not speeding up the journey
Where to, if what I need is to get back to the start?
So I let darkness kiss my cheek
My eyes, my heart, and my feet
I invite it to sit with me
And let is show me what I need to see