I worship you
and I fear
how the blue light on your skin
makes me forget the pain I’ve seen
It’s too good to be true
this just can’t be you
you’re honey for my mind
of that sweet, overwhelming kind
who are you
fire, bright reflection?
oh how beautiful I feel
in the flaws of your perfection
letting go and I start to flow
giving in to the beauty
that is to watch you loving me
like twins in another place
who locked eyes and saw the same face
they were one before they were two
but finally forgot who was who
can I live up to your expectations
or, erm, do I really want to?
first I’m me, then I’m a woman
the one who gets to see that shall be my true man
my heart needs the space
to put you in its place
so I can love you truthfully
this is my bedtime prayer
in a scared whisper, I beg you
God teach us how to dance together
and show me how to love this man forever
A friend of mine, Emma, recently told me that she felt that doing the Kundalini teacher training course (yes, we’re almost teachers!), is like finally drinking from an infinite source of water that was scarce all her life – as if she was wondering thirsty along the desert until now. Her words inspired me so much that I ended up writing this… because yes, we were chasing a mirage by joining this course, we had no idea what to expect, we were scared, but we did it anyway! And now I too feel like I’ve found the tip of my Oasis.. something that I thought was only a mirage all my life… and there’s so much to discover! Even if for the rest of the world my Oasis might seem just a crazy mirage, I have tasted it. I am in it. My inner journey has begun 🙂
Apathy and emotional overreaction are different sides of the same coin. Just like laughter and tears are both expressions of a release happening in the body, apathy and emotional overreaction are both expressions of the same egotistic tendency of the mind to be in control.
Run away from the past, and you’ll become disconnected. Run towards the future, and you’ll become too emotional. The only way to free ourselves is to let go, observe, and stop running away and towards experiences which never really happened, and never really will. The only true experience that we will ever have is happening right now. Now it’s gone. Wait, now it’s here again. Can you feel it?
Me within Me is the Purity, Me within Me is the Reality, Me within Me is the Grace, I am the Master of the Space.
“Am I really in love, or am I too attached?’ Contemplate on this question as deeply as you can. Most people are craving for attachment, not real love. In a way, we are betraying ourselves. We mistake attachment for love. Love is the centre and attachment is the periphery. Aim for the center.” -Amma (Mata Amritanandamayi)